• guys...................SORRY. I accidentally invited EVERYONE(including all the parents n non related people) on my gmail contact list to join facebook and .................  SH*T!!
  
  RE: I've added you as a friend on Facebook...Sarah K. Yip to me                                    07:44 (13 hours ago)
  Thanks, Veronica. I will try to see if I can get in.
  
  Sarah Yip
  

  News Feed Al Yip accepted your invitation to Facebook. 7:39pm

  To: EVERYONE
  Sorry
  From: Veroncia

movie  "Jesus Camp". is this movie gonna bring people back to jesus or will it freak people out.

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  http://movies.go.com/movies/movie?name=jesus-camp_2006

Last night's discussion was really good, especially the movie clip from "Passion". It was such a good reminder for me.

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  college............
  picking a major is sooooooo difficult!!!!
  my list:
  advertising
  business admin
  communication
  economics
  education
  hotel management

• I've changed so much since i came here. ever since i came, everything changed. i am never the little girl again, there isn't a day that i'm truely happy, there are always moments during the day when i feel aweful, when i feel that it's the end of the world. it's been 2 years, but the hate n bitterness are still deep in my heart. they are never gone. n i know that i am the one who's not letting them go. i hold on to them so tightly that i just don't know how to let go anymore. i want to let go or maybe i don't. hate n bitterness have became drugs to me. i am addicted to them.

thz ingrid n esther, i actually wasn't goingto church on sunday. but that morning i saw u guyz' comments n they just gave me a lot of courage. thz

er.... didn't mean to post the whole conversation but oh well.
basically this was what happened: talked to vivian today, she gave me a lot of good advices n just made me feel so much more peaceful. think i am applying to her sku now n maybe study her major (advertising!) too !!

MisssNutsss (下午 11:37:56): hi vivian, this is veronica

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:38:04): hiiii

MisssNutsss (下午 11:39:42): i am doing college apps now, could i borrow your personal statements nd essays cuz i think we have similar experience

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:40:20): wait..college apps? i think I thought u were the other vernonica

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:40:27): umm..where have we met?

MisssNutsss (下午 11:40:36): auntie ruth's house

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:40:43): oooooooooooh

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:40:44): haha

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:40:45): ok

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:40:47): i c

MisssNutsss (下午 11:40:49): yea.

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:41:09): well...i definitely for sure don't have that document on my computer anymore

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:41:12): it has been 3 years

MisssNutsss (下午 11:41:20): o

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:41:41): and i don't know if i still have it on paper..>_<

MisssNutsss (下午 11:41:46): well then can i just ask u questions?

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:42:09): sure!

MisssNutsss (下午 11:42:29): so i guess u wrote about coming o america?

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:43:07): umm.kind of

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:43:19): i wrote more about exchange student experience

MisssNutsss (下午 11:43:22): did u write abou positive tings or negatives?

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:43:23): but yeah..i guess it's kinda the same

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:43:29): what do u mean?

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:43:43): what consider as positive and what consider as negative

MisssNutsss (下午 11:44:00): like did u write bout how crappy this place is or how great america is

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:44:40): haha

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:44:47): well...let me think

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:44:56): i said the reason i came here

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:45:02): what happened when i first came here

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:45:23): and mainly how i overcame the adversity and what's the result

MisssNutsss (下午 11:45:49): ic

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:45:54): i don't think i gave an opinion about this place but i definitely talked about my experience

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:46:10): and that experience is positive as in i faced a challenge and overcame it

MisssNutsss (下午 11:46:45): my problem is i seriously dun like this place n i guess m essay will come out like an reli angry essay

MisssNutsss (下午 11:46:57): but i dun thing the admission ppl like to see that

MisssNutsss (下午 11:47:45): so i'm like all confused bout wat i should write bout

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:48:14): umm

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:48:20): well

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:48:28): personally statement = personally achievement

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:48:43): u want to write about your most significant achievement in life

MisssNutsss (下午 11:48:52): aka brag all u can?

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:49:04): no no no

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:49:07): just ONE

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:49:26): don't make personally statment as ur resume aka a list of all you've done

MisssNutsss (下午 11:49:33): so i pick one thing and enlarge it 100X

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:49:37): ONE that most impressive

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:49:45): umm...well...they can tell if u r BS

MisssNutsss (下午 11:49:50): lol

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:49:51): just be sincere

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:49:57): and NEVER LIE

MisssNutsss (下午 11:50:10): c

MisssNutsss (下午 11:50:31): tis so stressful

MisssNutsss (下午 11:50:59): y did u decide to apply U of I?

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:51:12): cuz it has the best advertising program in the US

MisssNutsss (下午 11:51:33): did u declare a major when u were applying?

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:52:27): kinda

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:52:40): the program is only 2 years..so i had to be a "pre-advertising" when i applied

MisssNutsss (下午 11:52:54): ic

MisssNutsss (下午 11:53:43): wat do u learn in advertising. i am kinda interested in thattoo but i dun know exctly what it does

MisssNutsss (下午 11:53:58): like is it all bout commercials?

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:54:09): umm...commercial is part of it

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:54:20): there are a lot of part of it

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:54:38): there are print ad, radio ad, and tv ad

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:54:41): internet ad

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:54:51): we learn how to design and sell those ads

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:55:02): how to market a product/event/service

MisssNutsss (下午 11:55:11): soo many....

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:55:14): how the consumers think & resond

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:55:19): there are many part

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:55:24): depends on what u want to do

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:55:38): market research

MisssNutsss (下午 11:55:49): hum..

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:56:01): media outlet and how to use them to place ad

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:56:22): how to do a campaign (a series of ad)

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:56:30): how to view ad critically

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:56:33): it's very fun!

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:56:35): i love it

MisssNutsss (下午 11:56:48): it sounds fun n a LOT of work

MisssNutsss (下午 11:57:04): i guess i like that too

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:57:29): umm...it's fun work tho

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:57:34): and it really depends what u want to do

MisssNutsss (下午 11:57:34): i mean if my ad was sucesful it feels good

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:58:01): but u of Illinois provide many advertising classes so u can get a good feel in each area

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:58:06): yep

MisssNutsss (下午 11:58:13): good

MisssNutsss (下午 11:58:31): think i'm applying

MisssNutsss (下午 11:58:41): how many skus did u apply to?

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:59:09): umm..a lot

TaiwangirlVivian (下午 11:59:11): like 8

MisssNutsss (下午 11:59:28): ......i was thinking bout applying to 20

MisssNutsss (下午 11:59:42): think that's a bit too much huh

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:00:09): yeah

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:00:13): u dun need that much at all

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:00:18): that's waste of money

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:00:21): i even think 8 is too much

MisssNutsss (上午 12:00:29): but i'm soo afraid that i'm not gonna get into a good one

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:00:33): i was so afraid that i wasnt gonna get in any of them

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:00:43): but that worry to be proven unneccessary

MisssNutsss (上午 12:01:09): wat if my SAT scores reli suck

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:02:01): dun worry

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:02:11): personally statement is more important

MisssNutsss (上午 12:02:20): no seriously, it's reli bad

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:02:26): they want well-rounded students..not students just know how to study

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:03:13): what schools are u thinkin about applyin

MisssNutsss (上午 12:03:27): all UCs and CSUs

MisssNutsss (上午 12:03:44): that's like the minium

MisssNutsss (上午 12:03:51): not all CSUs tho

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:03:56): ALL UCs??

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:03:59): why?

MisssNutsss (上午 12:04:12): just so i can get into at least one of them

MisssNutsss (上午 12:04:40): berkeley, LA n san diego won't get me

MisssNutsss (上午 12:04:51): but if i don apply my parents will be mad

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:04:57): =.=|||

MisssNutsss (上午 12:05:02): yea

MisssNutsss (上午 12:05:15): my dad told me to apply to wellesley

MisssNutsss (上午 12:05:22): n ivy league

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:05:44): which ivy league

MisssNutsss (上午 12:05:50): like brown

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:06:02): u know UCs' apps is easy

MisssNutsss (上午 12:06:06): yea

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:06:11): but the more school u apply, the more apps u have to write

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:06:16): the more personally statement u have to write

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:06:20): the more money u r payin

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:06:34): some schools have weird essays requirement

MisssNutsss (上午 12:06:43): UC's one app

MisssNutsss (上午 12:06:48): csu has one app

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:06:55): yep

MisssNutsss (上午 12:07:06): n most privates use the common app + supplements

MisssNutsss (上午 12:07:14): ur sku is another app

MisssNutsss (上午 12:07:21): so that's 4

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:07:49): i think most private schools use their own apps

MisssNutsss (上午 12:08:21): liberal arts colleges use the common app

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:08:32): i c

MisssNutsss (上午 12:08:37): except like USC n stanford

MisssNutsss (上午 12:08:52): i don know

MisssNutsss (上午 12:08:59): so scared rite now

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:09:03): dont worry

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:09:05): u will be fine

MisssNutsss (上午 12:09:17): i hope

MisssNutsss (上午 12:09:42): i heard that public skus only care bout SAT scores n grades

MisssNutsss (上午 12:09:51): my grades are good

MisssNutsss (上午 12:10:02): just not my sat score

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:10:06): that's not true

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:10:20): i really think personal statement is more important

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:10:44): and for UCs..SATII count heavier than SATI

MisssNutsss (上午 12:10:51): o

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:11:02): but it really doesnt matter which school u end up attending seriously

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:11:13): in college...really doesnt matter

MisssNutsss (上午 12:11:26): it matters to my parents

MisssNutsss (上午 12:11:29): n me too

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:11:31): unless u r thinkin about going to grad school rite after undergrad

MisssNutsss (上午 12:11:50): i mean it will be soo embarrassing to tell ppl that i go to de anza

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:11:55): because it is really about what u learn outside of classroom count..which means what u put on ur resume

MisssNutsss (上午 12:12:01): or some kind of college that ppl haven't haerd of

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:12:02): so?

MisssNutsss (上午 12:12:15): it feels bad

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:12:16): many of my friends transfer to good UCs after 2 years of CC

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:12:21): it's a lot cheaper

MisssNutsss (上午 12:12:37): the sucess rate is getting lower each yr

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:12:44): well...but it feels even worse that u graduate from brown and cant find a job

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:12:49): which happens A LOT

MisssNutsss (上午 12:12:55): not in taiwan

MisssNutsss (上午 12:13:00): or hong kong

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:13:08): r u goin back to taiwan or hong kong after u graduate?

MisssNutsss (上午 12:13:11): yea

MisssNutsss (上午 12:13:22): not staying here

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:13:27): well...then it even MORE doesnt matter

MisssNutsss (上午 12:13:32): ?

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:13:42): u know in taiwan they confused U Penn and Penn State?

MisssNutsss (上午 12:13:47): lol

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:13:49): which is COMPLETELY different schools

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:13:59): but they think Penn State is AMAZING school

MisssNutsss (上午 12:14:05): .....................

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:14:16): and ppl also confused CSU and UC

MisssNutsss (上午 12:14:38): ok but ppl will never mix up berkeley n deanza

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:14:43): as long as u have the language ability (which u do) and a diploma from USA..u will be fine

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:15:00): but u r not goin to graduate from de Anza honey....u will transfer eventually!

MisssNutsss (上午 12:15:11): true..................

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:15:27): altho i do have an advice for u tho

MisssNutsss (上午 12:15:32): yes?

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:15:45): i strongly encourage u do choose a big school instead of small ones

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:15:59): because big school usually has more opportunities

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:16:05): and u can try different things/majors

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:16:14): u can learn more

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:16:25): meet more diverse ppl

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:16:48): cuz college is all about buildin skills and gainin experiences

MisssNutsss (上午 12:17:03): wow

MisssNutsss (上午 12:17:07): never thot bout that

MisssNutsss (上午 12:17:17): i was gonna apply to a lot of small skus

MisssNutsss (上午 12:17:29): cuz afte rstudying in leland

MisssNutsss (上午 12:17:41): i just can't stand big skus anymore

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:17:47): i wanted to go to a small school originally

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:17:58): but after i came here...i am so glad i came

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:18:15): seriously..i feel like i can do a lot of things

MisssNutsss (上午 12:18:17): u know u  reli made me wanna go to ur sku

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:18:27): study aboard...lota programs

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:18:58): i can take many different classes --> end up getting a minor i would never thought i would do (Latina/o Studies..LOL)

MisssNutsss (上午 12:19:17): what?!

MisssNutsss (上午 12:19:29): latino studies

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:19:31): be super involved w/ the activities on campus

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:19:42): met a lot of ppl from all over US & the world

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:19:46): yep..latino studies..lol

MisssNutsss (上午 12:20:11): but i thot public skus don like to accept students from other staes

MisssNutsss (上午 12:20:15): states*

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:21:02): no

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:21:09): not true

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:21:15): they have to make their quota

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:21:17): well..kinda

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:21:40): but it is true tho...most public schools want more diverse campus

MisssNutsss (上午 12:22:09): diverse campus = they want international students

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:22:24): yep

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:22:27): or out of state

MisssNutsss (上午 12:22:55): cool!

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:22:59): yeah

MisssNutsss (上午 12:23:12): well let's c if i can get in with my crappy test scores

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:23:27): dun worry

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:23:45): if u want me to look over ur personal statement after u're done..just send it to me

MisssNutsss (上午 12:23:58): THANKS so much

MisssNutsss (上午 12:24:01): i'll

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:24:06): no problem

MisssNutsss (上午 12:24:09): i need to go, it's 12:30 am over here. have school at 7:50 tmr

MisssNutsss (上午 12:24:11): thz

MisssNutsss (上午 12:24:17): u reli helped a lot

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:24:25): ai

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:24:26): go to bed

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:24:31): im glad i can help

MisssNutsss (上午 12:24:39): talking to some1 with the same expericnce n getting adivce is just great

MisssNutsss (上午 12:24:52): thz n nite

TaiwangirlVivian (上午 12:25:10): nite

GOD, where are you? WHERE ARE YOU?????? Why aren’t you here when I need you? WHY?! Can you not see me suffering? Why are you doing this to me? Why do you put me through this? Why do you have me deal with something that I can’t handle? Why did you leave me? Aren’t you suppose to be the loving and amazing god that you are famous for? Didn’t you say that you love your children? Am I not your child? Then WHY? Why are you letting me suffer? A father doesn’t let his children suffer, does he? A father loves his children soooo much that when his children don’t feel good, he doesn’t feel good too and when his children cry, his heart should feel like being stabbed with a knife! Can you feel a knife stabbing your heart right now? Can you feel my pain? Do you know how I feel? You do, don’t you? I mean YOU SHOULD, you are the God who knows everything. God, I just don’t understand. Why do I have to go through this? Do I deserve it? What did I do wrong? I am ANGRY, VERY ANGRY!!!!!!! Why am I here?! I hate here! I hate everything about America, everything in America! I hate public schools! I hate poor schools! This school has no money and it has a disgusting campus! I hate being poor! I hate life! I hate pretending! Pretending that I'm the happy, pretending that I feel great, pretending that everything's fantastic. And do you know any of that? God, do you? DO YOU???!!! I just don’t get it, I really don’t. Why am I here? Ain’t I suppose to be in England? Oh, I know! My parents aren’t rich enough to support the expensive tuition fee, so they kicked me here after letting me enjoyed one year in heaven. I kept telling myself that knowing God is the biggest present I got in America and this was the biggest purpose that you sent me here but I realized that it was a lie, an excuse that I told myself to make me feel better.

everything has a purpose and what is the purpose for this god?  i am tired, i really am. i wish everything would come to an end.